Dear Black & Pink,
My name is Kiki and I have been receiving the Newspaper for some time now and a lot of the stories touched my heart. I’ve been going through it in here, just for being gay. But nothing like some of the stories from those sisters of mine in the Newspaper. That makes me feel like one of these days somebody is gonna test me. I won’t touch anyone unless they touch me. Then I will touch them back. And I touch hard.
My issue is when I go to the chow hall, I can’t sit just anywhere. People in here don’t want to sit next to someone who is gay. They have the nerve to say that it’s their table, and then they tell me to move. At that moment I can be ready to lash out and kick their ass. But instead, I move. I am tired of moving when I feel that I shouldn’t have to.
I have a little pull here on this yard, so I went to a staff member who’s a captain. I asked her if I could sit in an area where they don’t let people sit so I won’t have any problems and she said yes. Now a lot of the other staff allow me to set anywhere. I just have to leave once I’m done eating. Now that’s better than kicking some ass and going to the hole.
You see, not all staff members are ugly. Some will help if they can, but you have to let them hear your voice. Not speaking is not good at all. We can stand up for what we need to and avoid trouble that makes our time longer in these kind of places. If you stay cool and talk respectful, you can get help, I did.
Keep hope alive and well.
Dear Black & Pink Family,
My name is Matt, a 29 year old openly gay man. I’m dealing with some severe discrimination. A little over a week ago, I was invited to the chapel to play in the band (I’m a trombonist). I am a Lutheran. When I got there, I was taken to the Chaplain who told me I could not participate in the service because I am gay! I was dumbfounded. The Supervisory Chaplain told me to get out.
I have begun the grievance process and sent out letters to the ACLU. I admit, I’m scared. This guy preached a sermon the week before about how the Supreme Court’s decision (fall of DOMA) isn’t God’s law, and homosexuality is still an abomination. He also answers only to the warden, so he could disappear me easily. There are plenty of religious zealots here, both real and fake. I am still going to fight, though. I only was able to come out since coming to prison, and finally feel secure in who I am. I am fighting, come what may.
I didn’t expect this in Massachusetts, the state has been so pro-gay. But it did, and here I am. I am a gay Christian fighting for access to my church.
I’d ask for your help in anyway you can. There’s nothing you can do about the sleepless nights, the fear, the depression. Maybe you can pray.
Stay strong and proud. Wish me luck.
To All My Black & Pink Family,
Here in California there are a lot of us who embrace our sexual orientation and that of others, without judgment! At this prison we face obstacles together, with a solidarity that’s been missing from other parts of the country. I was to encourage every PERSON- gay, lesbian, trans, we are all People, period!- to stand firm and remember that we here in California are with you all in spirit. For all that are reading this in the Newspaper, don’t be afraid to write a letter, with your struggles and successes, letting others be encouraged from your words. We must stand United! Take care and stay You!
Dr. Matthew, California
Never Be Broken: I am a Militant
To all my Brothers and Sisters: Embrace one another. Stand together, no matter what. Support one another, and always help your brothers and sisters out. We must continue to stand for what’s right. We are a family- black, white, brown- LGBTQ people are all races, we are one. Through unity and love we can grow, and yes we’re stronger than ever! Look how far we have come, let’s continue the struggle, it’s far from over.
To my Brothers and Sisters who got it bad and constantly having to deal with foul injustice, people beating on them and trying to take advantage- I say no more! Stand up for yourself, keep your head held high, I feel your pain. We must stand up for one another, Brothers and Sisters, through unity we can all overcome. Please, don’t give up. I know the pain you endure- the mind games these pigs try to play, to break you into compliance, don’t let them win! How can they break someone who can’t and won’t be broken? Continue to stand tall together. I read your stories in the Newspaper, it touches me deeply, I’ve been there with you. I’ve been cell extracted, gassed, tasered, shot with beanbags, put on stripped cell butt-naked. Even beat up by gangs. I refuse to be broken, I will continue to stand strong! Together, state to state, I ask my Brothers and Sisters to be there for each other, uplift and encourage each other to continue to stand tall and comfortable in your sexuality! I wish you well. Be positive and remember we are a family so love one another. And never be broken!
Comrade S.S., N.A.B.P., Colorado